A close friend once confided in me quoting the following as his greatest fear, “To be unknown and loved, to be known and unloved.”
A common fear we can be plagued with in our relationship with God is the fear of being truly found out. Having the depths of our hearts being revealed to Him and facing the possibility of not being accepted and loved can be frightening. Fear breeds insecurity and we entertain deceptive thoughts, telling ourselves lies like; “How can God forgive and love a person like me? If He really knew me, He would never love me.”
However, God corrects and conquers this fear in scripture by showing again and again, the ways in which He loves His people fully and unconditionally.
Take King David for example. Although there were many good things he had done in the name of the Lord – defeating Goliath, bringing back the Ark of the Covenant from the Philistines, and unifying Israel – like all of us, he struggled with sin. There were times when he dishonored God in his roles as a husband, father, and ruler. His failures led to the sins of adultery, lying, and murder.
Scripture teaches God’s amazing grace and that despite David’s sin, he is defined as a man of faith and a man after God’s own heart.
“For time will fail me if I tell of Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, of David and Samuel and the prophets, who by faith conquered kingdoms, performed acts of righteousness, obtained promises, shut the mouths of lions, quenched the power of fire, escaped the edge of the sword, from weakness were made strong, became mighty in war, put foreign armies to flight.” – Hebrews 11:32-34
“After He had removed him, He raised up David to be their king, concerning whom He also testified and said, ‘I have found David the son of Jesse, a man after My heart, who will do all My will.’” – Acts 13:22
David was a man who did truly love God, worshipped Him wholeheartedly, and lived a life of earnest and sincere repentance. However, it wasn’t his roles or skills that merited God’s favor. Instead, it was simply due to the God’s incomprehensible, merciful, and abundant love.
In His omniscience, God knew what David was going to do throughout his lifetime. Yet God loved him.
Since God created us in our inmost being, He knows us deeply and intimately. He clearly sees the depths of our hearts and knows all of our secret sins. Because He is fully God nothing is hidden from Him and still He loves us and offers us that loving relationship.
Today, in this moment, allow the Holy Spirit to cleanse your thought life of misrepresentations of who God is.
Look to Jesus, the Author and perfecter of our faith. Receive today a fresh outpouring of His grace and love for you. Then respond in genuine worship of our Heavenly Father.